:'(

Why do you create me in the first place.
Why didnt you take me away when I was a fetus.
Why do you always mess up my life.

Maybe, it's a mistake that I actually believe in you, that you really exist, listen and understand.
Where did I go wrong that Im under your wrath.
I know I couldnt live up my promises but changing takes time.
And, Im doing this all by myself, noone is there to guide me.
At least I wanted to change but you just dont give me any hope/chance.

I've endured with everything you put me through.
But some things, I just felt I dont deserve it.

I can never forget the tragedy you put me through last 2 years.
And I was all alone struggling very hard with my life.

I wonder how my parents feel if they know what I went through.

Sometimes, I wish Im a freethinker. Cause, I dont know whats the use of God when He is not giving me chances or helping me.


Maybe I should feel abit grateful.
Because at least Im not handicapped, at least I have proper meal and good living condition, at least Im not an orphan...
But I just hope, my life could be better.  ¶ 8:22 PM