Why am I having bad feelings?
Will another disaster happen again?

I tried to put that matter aside but it just keep bugging me.
I feel that I could flare up anytime.. Like a time bomb, just waiting for the right moment and.. "BOOM!"

I hope nothing happen later. Or it'll just affect tomorrow, the day that I've be looking forward.
And of course, my efforts will be in vain.

I wont be silly to resort to self-mutilation, I promise. Eventhough I am tempted to as I couldnt take the pressure anymore.
I hadnt shed a tear too.
Yes, I am strong. (self-praising) ;)
And I'll try to learn to appreciate and love life more, hopefully.
And accepting the fate... as much as I dont quite believe in it.
Congratulations God, you've succeeded in twisting my fate eversince 2006. -applause and confettis-

I am a fool. F-O-O-L!! get it?  ¶ 5:42 AM